Chelsea
I just feel like that everyday now
(Source: this--too--shall--pass, via theechallenge)
Lately I’ve been spending more time alone, in addition to the time spent with my Adam whenever we both are free. I actually don’t mind the time alone; I need a break from the world, because I am really tired of it.
Adam has been really supportive of the way I’ve been lost and looking for anything new. Today when I broke a dish and my mom came to destroy me about everything I do wrong, he walked in the room and just held me as I cried. And then he wiped the tears away from my face, made me look at him, and then placed me back on his shoulder to get his tee shirt wet once more. I’ve been afraid to show him that my life really blows right now, in fear that he’ll pity me or find me pathetic, but instead he’s just been proving that he loves me. When I tell him about something that bothers me, or something that I miss, he changes it. He opens doors for me now, offers me his soda before he sips it. He’s been amazing and its good to feel like I have my very own best friend that I hardly have to share.
I think I’m going to try and build my own life now. Find some hobbies or new volunteering projects to work on and try and make new friends. I want to be able to do things that don’t rely on what my friends or boyfriend are doing. In fact, I want to take a break from some people for a few days. They’ve just been upsetting me and I’m not happy with them. They’ll hardly notice.
“Fuck what everyone thinks, and do what makes you happy.” Thats what Pat told me today. He’s right. Even if I have to be the girl exploring nature by herself, or digging her head in some books to keep herself busy, at least I’m happy and alone.
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